Sometimes, you just have to sit yourself down, and write. Maybe your story isn’t seeming too interesting right now, or your characters are fighting. Maybe you’re not sure how you want to continue.
But you have to.
You have to just settle down, avoid distractions, and start writing. Let the characters take hold, and see where they’ll take you.
And even as I type this, I realize that I haven’t been doing this. I’ve been pushing away the thought of starting a new novel. I’ve been pushing away the thought of continuing work on a novel I was working on over the summer. And I don’t know why. Maybe I’m just unsure of my writing abilities at the moment. Maybe I’m scared. I don’t really know. But what I do know, is that I have to sit myself down, and start to write. I have to start that new story I’ve been working on—sure, I’ve been saying I’m almost ready to start, but have I been pushing myself to finish the final stages of planning? No. I’ve been letting myself get distracted, letting my attention wander. And I can’t do that. I want to write. No. I need to write. But have I been writing?
And how is this possible? In November, I had words flowing from my fingers. I was happy, and writing away. But right now? Nothing. The occasionally story idea hits me, but it soon fizzles out. And because of that, I’ve gotten scared.
What if this new idea doesn’t do anything? What if it fizzles out, like all those other ideas I had? What if… What if… What if…
And I know it’s cheesy, and people say it all the time, but I have to stop thinking about the what-if’s, and just start writing. Because I can’t just keep doing this, pushing away my writing. Because writing is something that I feel lost without.
So, I’m going to make myself start writing again. Writing is something I love, and I need. And I need to teach myself to write every day. Writing every day is part of why I love NaNoWriMo. It gets you to just sit down, and write, even if you aren’t really sure if your story makes sense, or if you like it, or whatever. It gives you motivation to write.
And I need motivation. I have to start writing again. I use school as an excuse to not write, saying, “Oh, I had a lot of homework.” But you know what? If I can spend hours lollygagging on the internet on school nights, I can most certainly put away half an hour, or an hour, and just write. And sure, there will be some nights when I can’t do that. But that's okay, because most nights I can.
So, I’m going to start writing again. I’m going to either do a rewrite, or just a revision, I’m not sure, of my NaNo10. I’m going to do a read-through of a novel I started over the summer, that I abandoned about 20,000 words in, and perhaps start writing on it again, after having read through it. And I’m going to start a new novel idea I’ve had filed away in my brain for a few weeks.
So I’m pushing away this writer’s block that has settled over me like a blanket, since November. I’m pushing it away, and I’m going to start writing again.
The Dandy Lioness
P.S. Sorry if this post is kind of ramble-y and repetitive. I just needed to get this out of my system, and write it down.